Our Little Family: November 2012

The Second Greatest Gift.

McCoy J.D. Bone was born November 1, 2012 at 6:05 in the Orem Community hospital. He weighted 9lb 8oz and was 21in long.

As I stated in one of my last post, finding out this bundle of joy was going to join our family started in March 2012. We were contacted by his birthmom who had asked us and had felt like the child she was caring was meant to be ours. I often asked myself why us? How did we get so lucky? What have we done to deserve this? Still asking myself these question I have not yet found my answers. But we did find and had the most AMAZING experience of our lives.

With not being able to have our own children, I was able to join this birthmom every step of the way with McCoy. She made sure I was included in on EVERYTHING. I went to every doctors appointment, I knew almost ever contractions she was having, whenever someone asked what she was having she would say "ask the mom", and I was able to help/support her though all the pain with delivering. I couldn't have asked for anything more. We became so close. We grew a love for each other that NO ONE else could have or understand. No words could explain what she was giving us. I was becoming a mom again, Hayden was becoming a BIG brother, and Kyle was getting to be a dad again.

Through the whole pregnancy she had told us she didn't want to see him after he was born. She didn't want to bond with him and make it harder. We said whatever you want. The night McCoy was born Kyle and I went home to sleep, she had asked if she could take one of his night feedings to say her goodbyes. We said sure, again whatever she wanted and needed. The next morning I called to check on her and let her know we were on our way. She said she was just hanging out with McCoy. Kyle and I were shocked. We were asked if we freaked out, wondering if she had changed her mind? We said not one bit. It will work out the way it is meant to. Once we arrived at the hospital she asked us to stay in the room with her, she was lonely and it felt right. And she was right on that one. We have been together on this from day one, we were family now. No words can explain the love that was in that room. The love she had for McCoy, the love we had for him and everyone that came to visit. I wanted her to see the love that McCoy was going to be receiving. And the love that our family

had for her.

Well as that last day went on, we knew the signing time was coming up, the toughest part of all. After signing and before we took her home she said her good byes to McCoy. The things she said to him were heartbreaking and heartwarming. The LOVE she has for him is speechless. There wasn't a dry eye in the room. You could feel our lord and saviors love in that room. There was no denying that what was happening was right, and they had both of their hands in on the blessing.

That night when I crawled into bed I broke down and cried. I cried for 45 minutes. All I could think about was this birthmom and what she had done for us. The strenth she has, the love she has, the drive she has. I felt like I was loosing my sister. I am going to miss the crap out of her. I love this girl more the anything. She always made me laugh, her come backs were the best. Even right in the middle of pushing almost a 10 lb baby out she was cracking jokes and laughing.

Girl I know you are reading this and I hope you know just what you have given us. I hope and pray you know just how much we/I love you. Thank you for letting me be a part of this. Thank you for letting me feel McCoy whenever I wanted, even though he didn't move when I did. I am going to miss you.

I want to make you a promise. I will try to love him just as much as you do. I promise to take care of him. I promise to raise him to be a bright, kind, loving, friend, and husband. I promise you I will protect him to my best abilities. I promise to be a great role model for him. I promise to take him places, show him what he can do with his life, make him a believer in himself. I hope and pray I don't let you down. Thank You Thank You Thank You from the bottom of our hearts. We will be forever in dept to you. We love you so much.

Enjoy the pictures.